The first week of work me and my colleague spent a lot of time scourging the internet for news-updates. It was a calm week, no angry phone-calls from sick people. Not a lot of ruckus on our end, though the doctor was more stressed. Difficult consultations I imagine, without actually knowing. Regardless, in the end all the calm days made me restless and the other day. Tuesday, in-fact, I decided it would be nice to just label things. Organize things, get rid of stuff we don’t use or which dates have expired. We threw away a lot of junk. Papers that are no longer in use, clearing out space and reorganizing it. Spare blood-sample glasses that we had at the lunch-room is now behind the counter for example. The surgery room is still horribly messy, but that’s the doc’s responsibility. Either way, we had a bunch of A4 yellow papers that we had no need for. We didn’t use them this easter as planned, simply because we forgot. So my colleague said we should throw them away, but I snatched them and said I’ll take good care of them. What exactly I will use them for, I have no idea! My colleague smiled and said I’ll probably find some creative way to use them for. Which surprised me, I haven’t really spoken to the people at work about my hobbies and what I like to do. Just small talk about different things. Vague things, but somehow she had picked up on this. It was strange and it made me a bit cautious. Now I can’t decide if I should talk less, or continue as I always have. It is strange when you get those moments and you realize only briefly how someone else must regard you.
Creative. Well, I sure do not feel particular creative these days. I haven’t really made anything grand or special. I have ideas and thoughts, but they never become anything bigger than just that. Yellow paper, paper art is not something I am particular good at. In-fact, I am most positive dreadful with it. Sometimes, I swear, I am such a magpie. Just collect things because “I’m sure I can make something out of it one day…” Sometimes I do, but more often I do not. I just threw out, or… rather replaced a lot of my craft items and placed them with my mother for her to keep safe. It will probably be months until I decide I want to use any of it.
